A Letter To Sisters In Christ – October 12th, 1868
My dear Friends, Mrs. Peake and Miss Morris,
We were highly favored in our journey home, not only in the day, but in the comfort of the transit, being by ourselves all the way, and passing from Leicester to London by the new line without once stopping. Still I felt very tired before I reached my own home, and though preserved from taking fresh cold, yet I have felt greater weakness than when at Oakham. I trust however that, through mercy, the attack is passing off, though I expect it will be some time before I regain that measure of health and strength, never very great, which yet enables me to go through the various tasks that lie before me, with some tolerable comfort.
I do not think I ever felt the disappointment so great as being laid aside on this present occasion. I wished so much to be allowed to speak once more in the Lord’s name to those who I knew were desirous again to hear my voice. It is indeed to me a mysterious dispensation, and yet I hope it has in some measure been sanctified to my soul’s good. I have felt, through infinite mercy, much of the life and power of divine truth in my heart, have had much of a spirit of grace and supplications, and not been allowed to drop into carnality and death, or be filled with murmuring, fretfulness, self-pity, or rebellion. The flesh indeed has felt, and sometimes almost fainted under the burden, but the spirit has been made willing, has cleaved to the Lord with purpose of heart, and hung upon Him and Him alone, as a nail fastened in a sure place. It has been with me a sowing time, and I hope in due season to reap, if I faint not. It is very sad in old age to sink into worldliness, carnality, carelessness, and deadness; and though the flesh may writhe under the afflicting strokes of God’s hand, it is a mercy to have the life of God stirred up thereby, to be separated in heart and spirit from carnal earthly things, and to have the affections set where Jesus sits, at the right hand of God.
I felt anxious to know about Leicester, and am glad to learn from Mr. Knill’s letter, that the Lord was with him and granted him a sweet sense of His presence, with an opening of the heart and mouth to speak in His name. The Lord very frequently overrules these disappointments, and not only displays in them the sovereignty of His will, but also the power of His grace.
You will be glad to hear of my son’s recent success. Surely I have much reason to be thankful that at present my family turn out so well; especially when I look around me and see what a trial unruly children have been and are to gracious parents.
I am, my dear friends,
Yours very affectionately in the Lord,
J. C. P.