A Letter To A Brother In Christ – July 18th, 1838
July 18th, 1838
My dear Brother,
I feel myself a very poor preacher. The work tries my mind and body; and the last two Lord’s days, when I said, after the morning sermon, that Mr. Kay would preach the other time, I felt as a horse would, that had his harness taken off after a journey. I find that religion is uphill work; and the more I try to rise, the more I sink. I scarcely know how to make my religion out. I am not satisfied with those who get on so well and so fast, and yet any religion appears better than mine. How trying it is to preach to people alive in their souls, while so dead and carnal myself. Well might Paul say to the Corinthians, “So then death works in us, but life in you.” “Faint, yet pursuing,” is an experience not to be despised in the present day, for nearly all are zealous with ‘false fire’, and those who seem to have any real religion consider themselves dead and carnal.
Yours affectionately and sincerely,